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Sunday, June 1, 2008

; 2:48 PM

Haiz thought that today's gonna be better than yesterday
and who knows it got worse

woke up at 12 again went downstairs had lunch
after that went to bro's room watch home's alone 4
half way through the show my father came in and once again gave us lecture
supposingly the lecture was for my brother
however since i'm in the room together with him might as well lecture me too

so it started out as"Heard you havent been talking to your mother for 2 weeks"
"why is that so?Where is your respect to your elders gone to?"

i'm so glad that i do not have my brother's attitude towards people
cause it keep getting him into trouble with our family
this would be another heartbreaking moment for
lets say this moment would be added into my life's most heartbreaking moments

and this would be the 3rd time this session was brought up by my father
and i already have a few moments of my own life which i cant handle yet

so this session lasted about 1 hour
mostly about respect to your elders

my father said this"No matter if your parents did something wrong, you still have to respect them as your parents. They are the one's who gave birth to you and brought you up
give you comfort, things that u want and need"
"we are fucking chinese and not some westerners" we treat our elders with respect even if logic is wrong"
then my father ask my brother"What if you had your own child and your child say he/she doesnt want to talk to you for 2 weeks. What would you do? Both of you thinks that both of you are right and refuse to give in What would you do?
to which my brother reply" I would call them up and talk to them about this and would discuss who's right and who's wrong"
"i am taught to do things with reason and what you are teaching me now is reasons is lost whenever you are facing your elders."

which i think and right and partially wrong to say

My father then said things and the eathquake and the cyclone
he said"Have you ever thought about how this people felt when their family was torn apart?"
"have you ever think what you would do if your parents were lost overnight?"
"do you think that the things you have now is given by gods?"
"NO All this things you have now is given by your mother and I. We worked hard to provide you guys with all this luxary and all you guys did was complain"
"I never had this talk about respect with roy before... only you"
"i really don't understand why. Why u must keep on showing your attitude towards your parent"
"i am really very disappointed with you"
and he walked off

that's a really another bullet through my heart...
of course those i wrote are only a part of the whole story
can't remember the words my father used.

when my father walked off into his room, my borther went and close his door and told me this
"If you thinks dad's right about respecting your elders, you are wrong"
"traditions are meant to be broken"
"its true that respecting your parents is right but if they are wrong u should only show them the minimum respect they deserve"
"we respect our father out of fear and not out of love"
"if he knows this he'll be so disgrace"
"even i is disgrace by my action when i treat you always bullying you hitting you torturing you"
"i know you respect me out of fear and i am ashame about it"

yes i agree that respecting elders out of fear isn't called respect but he is our father
no matter what he do... i respect him because he cared for the family and he tried his best to provide the best for his sons which is my brother and I.
and i respect you brother cause you taught me many thing about life and how to go about it
and i don't really mind you hitting, bullying and torturing me as when u did all those it taught me many ways on how to torture ppl and where to inflict the pain on
Muhahahahahaa
that i got to thank my brother

all this made me think alot
like going through another session of adam koo
on respecting your elders
but this time you choose which one is the better type of respect and how you should go about earning and giving respects

going to stop here for now too much things in my mind
with this bundle of heartbreaking moments, its just a matter of time before i go BOOM!
i had better do something about all this ...

Myself

RoyChiaHaoWen
03.11.92 ; SEVENTEEN
scorpio
Trumpter
wrss student 2005-2008
roy_chia@hotmail.com

HE LIKES
-Money
-Manga
-Anine
-Trumpet
-Skating
-Happy memories
-Cool weather
-Reading books
-People with an attitude
-PRANKING people
-PIMPLE-LESS face
-Hakuna Matada
-Sentimetal music
-Pop music
-Bowling
-MAJONG
-Winning
-WEDDING DINNER

HE HATES
-A SLOW Computer
-No MONEY in the wallet
-Feeling WEAK
-POOR result
-interference when having fun
-SEVERE Attitude people
-Spring onion
-anything TASTE MILKY
-Having a CURFEW
-pimple that keep poping out
-Being moody
-situations that makes me think alot
-Rock music
-Losing
-Being scolded
-Being avoided
-Scolding people

HE WANTS
-a cash box that have a proper key. not from popular pls
-a new handphone
-Good Grades
-Laptop
-Nice shirts
-Board shorts, size 30
-a very big house
-MORE $$
-Lots of tissue paper (pls dun buy this for my birthday)thanks
-Pimpless faces
-A trumpet not too ex la around thousand + can le^^
-King size bed
-Nice shoes
-almond chocolates(van holten)
-a bigger study table
-a clever maid(1 who understands english)
-Time machine
-A vacation with my cousins only overseas (no adults)
-grow taller
-A universal controler in my hands

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